While I wish you were able to produce as much as you need, your perspective and ability to reach out for support from donors and through formula is so strong and loving. Thanks for sharing your detailed, varied emotions here as always, which will in no doubt help others struggling through similar issues, now and in the future. Asking for support and knowing when you need help is a sign of strength. In doing so, you’re modeling this strength to your daughter as well as showing the importance of the ability to adjust and find ways of coping as needed when life isn’t perfect. And to know that with our imperfections, especially those we can’t control, we find new ways of blossoming and shining in our own special, if unexpected, ways.